Smiles, Tears, & Everything in Between

yummy ! (:

2009-04-28T00:59:04Z

k, so i havent been on this in like, FOREVER & i'm like .. in the writing mood right now, but i really have no idea to write about, so i shall talk bout food ! LOL ! i bet you're like, wtf ? & will probably stop reading this, but whatever. (:
k, so i'm eating dinner right now, & it's like .. one of my favorite meals of all time. ready for it ?

*insertdrumrollsoundeffectshere*

cheetos and rice ! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL !
yes, cheetos and rice. (:
lemme explain , so ..
when i was young i was a VERY picky eater, xD
when it came to meal times, i probably only had a selection of food that i'd actually eat, xD
and since cheetos were one of my all time favorite snacks, my parents decided to combine them with the typical asian food, rice. so yeah, and ever since i was little, it's always been one of my all time favorite meals, (: anyways, enough of this, xD

byee ! (:

blogspot

2008-12-20T23:59:24Z

heey, so yeaah i've openned a blogspot & i'll probably be alternating between livejournal & blogspot.

my blogspot is www.miisssmelz.blogspot.com , mkaays byee ! (:

TA interviews. :/

2008-11-28T03:35:19Z

uggh, reminding myself what to finish before 10:30 am monday ..

religion: unit 3&4
geography: unit 5
french: unit 4 labos
science: unit 5 lab report
business: fourth AND fifth unit. [whichever units they may be]
english: poetry unit
math: hand in unit 6 & do all TLE
food: hand in unit 14. (:

eh.

2008-11-20T21:39:13Z

where'd you go ? it's been two -iish days now .. i miss you so damn much. )':

YESTERDAY

1) civvies
2) i got to see kuya lad. (:
3) reunited with eileen & her tims people.
4) got to see daniel for the very last time. ):

food lad was so much fun. (:
although the teacher kept telling me to be quiet. xD
& the giant pancake, YUM. ;D LOL.

aha, after school i had to wait for kuya lad til like 4 -iish & me, kristine and him went to wendy's ! aha, omg, it was sucha long walk & i was wearing flats. [luckily with socks on xD] & yeah. (: we ate there then headed to pmall to look for presents. ;D LOL.

at pmall we saw eileen, nimo, jack, jenelle, daniel, jerome [am i forgetting anyone?]
aha, it was fun. (:

TODAY</b>

today was okaay.
aha, ou the school was on lock & i was stuck in food with jeleel, lester & lasala. xD
i almost lost my camera in there .. :|
thanks to justin, he found it for me. (:
i owe him waaay too much.

bhesssss iss the bhesses! :DLOOL! im so gay. hahaha, you love me<3

2008-11-14T02:21:07Z

dear camel-toe , LMFAO !

hahahaha okayokayokayokayokayok what im i doing LMAO im bored BHESS ! LOL !:P
hahahaha ur in a "BAD MOOD" :P hahaha so what u call it :D but hahaha damn idk what to say -.- im so gayy, i mean lesbian LOOL!
LOOOL, its beeen a LONG LONG LONG day ! :D hahaha
did i tell u the time were me and my friends went to the movie to watch role model so yeaaah, we saw SAW 5 , we were gonna GOO, but then we went nothing was playing so its SUCKS BALLLLLS MAN ! :D lmfao! hahaha so we went to role model instead :]
hahaha tehe . im so awesome
i feel high for some reason -.-
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, BHESS !
you know what we need to do !?!?!!?!?!?!?
we gottta go to DQ MAN !
i want some blizzzard !!!!
and we still got like 23452345234523452457623462485298756234985723465923756298347562348975263489576923568923745682347526398457236458972 flavours to go ! LOL!
its gonna takeus forever ! :P
probably like the whole 3 years were gonna be together :P hahaha
bhessss did u know im a LESBIAN !!?!?!!?!?!?!! LOL!
i bet u didnt know that ; )
yeaaup, its like my darkest secret . ahahahaha
im gaay :P
okayokayokayokay i gotta tell you a story :] tehe! :D

once a upon a time...
there was a girl named camela riterite :P
her father and mother were great RULERS of the land TE-RA-BI-THIA! :] hahahaha.
okayokayokay, yeahh.
camela was booooooooooooored .
and her parents never let her out to play with the kids, cause shes to "cooool" for them .
okay so yeaaaah, one day she REALLY want to go out..
so she sneaked out so she can chill with her "friends" LOL!
then on her way there she got lost, she ended up in a foresttt...
it was really dark, she couldnt see anything except the trees.
when she turned around there was a man beside her !! O.O OMG !
whats she gonna do !
so she ran away further into the foresst, but the man kept following herr..
so theeen the guy caught up to her !!!!!
it was was was was was was GAY MAN!! !( AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!)
LMAO , idk . x)
then YEAH !!!
he almost raped her !! but theeeen !!
a knight with shining armor came along !! and broke the darkness !
the knight had saved camela from the evilnessss,
so theeen when camela got back to the castle were she'll be living in for 34523452345234523 of her life :P hahahaha
cause she ran away ( watta loser ) LMFAO JOKES!
hahaha yeah
she askeed the knight to take off his helmet and show him her face..
when he took it off, camela was so SHOCKED! :O cause he was so cute, pretty, strong, sexy and GREGG AUTILLO! LMFAO AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH !
yes his name was gregg ! :D hahaha camela's bf . LMFAO!

THE END ! :D

iFLYHIGHBHESS,NOLIMITS! EVER! (L)
NO DRIFTING! :P
EVER! <3

ugh, whatever ..

2008-11-14T01:42:07Z

why are you being all pms-y all of a sudden ? you starting to just add to the stress from school and family shit, thanks a lot ..

ANYwho, today was pretty okaay ! (:
aha, who thought that scheduled days would be pretty fun. xP

well ..

first period : science w. frair
meh, it was okaay. i had to help a guy with some work & some guy sitting at the same table thing as me was looking at me like he never seen a girl before .. :/

period two : english w. rossi
OMG, the funnest class of the day with jp and mae ! (:
aha, "i wanna buy a paki." -JP.
lmaolmaolmao, & then talking bout animal cruelty and dog sex. :|
can't wait til this class again, but JUST this class.

period three : geo w. zidar
boring. (N)
we didn't even talk about geo.
she started talking about a litary test & craap.
but then we got the friggin essay unit .. 8)
oh, ~~how wonderful~~ .. :/

period four : food w. la cavera
boring & la cavera's a bitch. xP
aha.

overall, today was .. meeh.
boring -iish & tiring. xD
not getting to go to any class is (N).
aha.

scheduled days .. (N)

2008-11-13T02:59:47Z

so, tomorrow is scheduled days .. (N)
who knew i'd be dreading them when in the beginning of the year i was loving them & hating day zeros.
planning your own schedule [even though no one ever follows it], hallwalking and stressing over test expiries, target dates and TA interviews. x} aha, oh booy scheduled days suure are fun if you compare it to that. 8) ^

aha, well .. at least i know i'll get some work done. (:

ps; happy five months & one day. (;

you've done too much for me ♥

2008-11-10T02:58:44Z

omg, when i look back at what's happened during my relationship i realized that gregg's done SO much for me.
1) he made the effort to see me at least once every week in the summer, sometimes even twice even though he lives over an hour away.
2) he puts up with me when i'm acting really stubborn.
3) he always comes to me, rather than i go to him & he still sees me even if he knows he might get in trouble for it.
4) he drops me home just to make sure i get there safe even though it'll add on about 30 minutes more to his already long way home.
5) we sorta make up excuses to make our goodbyes long & he puts up with my not-wanting-him-to-leave-ness
6) he knows EXACTLY what to say to make me smile & laugh.
7) even if i'm not in the mood for being ticklish he is the only person who CAN make me feel ticklish. (:

i can go on and on, but i'll stop there.
he's done too much for me. way more than i deserve & more than i could ever ask for.

i truly love him. <3

i love his smile. (:

2008-11-08T02:45:35Z

aha, so today was soo awesome. (:
although i had to wait for gregg for like an hour & just when i'm about to leave he comes.
so we head to the park cause that's where we planned on going. x}
thank God it didn't rain, but it was cold.
so yeah, we stayed at the park til it was dark cause y`know what happens at parks at night .. DRUGGIE'S COME ! ;o LOL. but yeah, we talked bout the weirdest things. xD mostly bout school but then we started talking about what we'd name our kids. LMAO. ew, he wants to name our kids names that i can't even spelll. xDD but surprisingly, he sorta liked the names i wanted. ;D LOL. yeah, so then we had to leave cause he was already in trouble & didn't want to get into more trouble for coming home late. but he dropped me off at home even though he knew it'd take another 30 -iish minutes longer. then it took like, another 10-20 minutes to saay byee. xD
aha, & my dad called like .. 3 times cause i kept telling him i was almost home, but i never got there yet. xD LOL. so yeah, awesome day. (:

ilovehim <3

BHESS, is superkalafajalisticsomethingsomthingalisojuaisticsomethingsomethingpooface! :] <3 LMAO .

2008-11-04T23:43:17Z

dear bhess,

hahahahaaha okayokay , what should i say? idk ? im SOO BORED. theres nothing to do and im cold and i dont think im typing properly LOL . do u like my title ? :D ITS SO AWESOME ! if u can read that ur a LOSER :P hahahaha jokesjokesjokes . lmfao .
im sucha weirdo O.O
LOL , anywaysss .
tomorrw is take yer kids to work day . and NO NINERS! :D YEAYO !LOL!
i remember mine last year , it was weird . i thought it'd be boring but then me and my friend went in to the room then next thing y'know 345782345892634587234659872345629348726485723698234562983475265782356982734569238475623984572364985276982353984562349857236459823645928347652934875623948572364958723465943928374562398475263958723465892374658952938456239487562934857623498526349582634598274659284352439856234598723465982346589237456298347652384756238945723649572346958723 girls, were in it . -.- i was like WHOA ! aha.
and there was only like 10 guys .
but it was pretty fun ? except we had to take the TTC to the other building.
hahaha
i hope u have fun with eileen >:]dont do anything stupid . looool.
and i wonder if anyone can read this post :P haha.
but anywho,
its gonna be a LOOOONG day tomorrow
imma do ALOTTA work cause no niners :P school shouldnt be so full x) TEHE. LOL
omgomg ! bhess ! guess what!?!?!?!?!!?!?

im bored :P LOL! and iFLYHIGH bhess, no LIMITS<3 x)
did y'know asians are SUPER AWESOME! ;P hahaha .
no offence to the other races ? O.O
iithink ithis is long enough LOL so much typos! :D
my hands are freezing i need toget someone to hold it , BRB .
lmfao just kidding. ill just get some GLOVES ;D LOL .
anyways ill write you more soontimes .

sincerly,

BHESS<3 :]

conditional zeros are .. (N)

2008-11-04T02:45:15Z

ugh, 2 days til conditional zeros .. holy crap.

things to get done:
french: unit 3 labos & all of unit 4.
geo: unit 3 [but fourth unit overall]
religion: unit 3-4 .. :/
english: poetry unit .. :/ crap i hate poetry.
food&nutrition: can't even get this done til after scheduled days which is AFTER the conditional zero target date cause i couldn't do the food lab since the kitchen had fucking mold.
science: all unit work from units 1 - 4 & the labs and assignment shizz for unit 4.
business: photoshop unit .. i guess this'll be easy.
math: don't need to do anything cause i'm working on unit 5 & 6. ;D

daamn, that's a lot ..

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i'm not gonna be at school on wednesday cause of "take yer kid to work" day. -.-"
yell at me if you find me hallwalking for the next few days please and thank you.
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ugh, damn the rain .. i was gonna go chill at the park with gregg, but it's gonna rain .. ):
oh wells, gottta plan a new chillage spot. (:

damn, i wanna know!

2008-10-31T02:00:15Z

LOL, so yeah. people are telling me that Gregg's gonna visit me as a surprise & i really wanna know when, but sadly i can't.. BOO! LOL.

i wanna read the message S0 badly. X}

october, twenty-fifth.

2008-10-25T06:07:32Z

happy exiversary mr.loser (:
aha, goodbye. (;

gregg jann repique autillo.

2008-10-23T01:58:34Z

okaay, so right now i should be doing units, but instead, ima post a little something here. x}

okaays well, after posting my latest note of fb,

http://www.facebook.com/notes.php?ref=sb#/note.php?note_id=31436948809&id=657805601&index=0

i realized that in the four months that i've known gregg, i've come to know a lot about him. like seriously, who knew that in four months i could learn so much about someone. (: like, i already knew so much about him the first day i met him. and no, i don't mean i stalked him before i met him, i mean that he told me so much about himself the first time we met and vice versa. i could pretty much trust him with everything the first day i met him. [hehe, which was on may 31st. ;D] lol, and at night when we were supposed to be in our rooms how we chilled in my room [no, not doing anything dirty] and just talking about ourselves, and life. (: aha, that's was so awesome. like, i bet me and him could've talked the whole night if he didn't get kicked out by ate princess for not being a girl. x} that's how much we clicked. (:

but i have no idea what i'd do without him though. like seriously, just talking to him and hearing his voice can make my day. (: hehe, he's done so much for me, and i've done so little for him [i think ..] and he seriously doesn't know what he's done to make me so happy, but these are a few of the reasons why i love him ..

- hehe, i'm pretty much in love with the teddy bear he gave me. xD

- he does the most randomest things/brings up the randomest topics that make me smile like crazy. (:

- he's not shy to show how much he cares for me in front of people, even though i am. x}

so yeah, those are just a few reasons why i love him. (:
he's seriously irreplaceable. <3
i love him whole-heartedly and unconditionally.
in other words, i love him with all my heart and no matter what he'll do, i'll love him. <3(:

aha, i wonder if he'll read this. x}
and if he does, I LOVE YOU. <3

(8) baby it's cold outside ..

2008-10-22T00:21:23Z

craap. the snow's back and it's only fall ! shiiiiiiiizz, i'm not ready for the snow. and i hate snow .. ): it's so cold .. and i get sick more easier cause of it dammit. hopefully it doesn't snow again for a loong time. (yn)

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i hope i don't get my hopes up too high this time, cause they might just come crashing down again ..

craap ..

2008-10-20T22:18:06Z

everytime i finally get out, i get dragged back in again .. thanks a lot.

missed yesterday .. x(

2008-10-19T18:59:05Z

daamn ! i missed posting yesterday ! x(
LOL.
ANNNNNNNNYwho, happy birthday dinah ! (^)

enough for now. (:
tootles.

me to we ! ;D

2008-10-17T23:28:27Z

so, me to we was AWESOME. ;D
aha, especially watching how many people trip over that thingy that covers the wires. xD
lmao, 50+ victims yo ! ;D aha, that was awesome. (:
i still think last year was better.
or maybe that's just cause last year was my first time. x}
oh wells, it was awesome stills. ;D
LOL.
then ditching them aidan people and going to the apple store with davy & taking pics. ;D oh gosh, we looked like retards. ;D
then omg, after we ate talking about who's be the first to ___________ ? LMAO.
and talking about hehe, ex boyfriends. xDDDD
awesomeness. (Y)

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i pray you get better baby .. ):
i seriously wanna see you, but you had to go to the doctor .. ):
i hope your virus goes away soon .. ):
get well soon.
i seriously love you so damn much. <3

we're so SOOPAR. (:

2008-10-17T01:52:54Z

hehe, i can't wait til tomorrow ! (:
me to we conference at ricoh coliseum ! ;D
aha, 10 000 people expected. ;D
whootwhoot ! (:
hehe, it'll be AWESOME. ;D

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uggh, i seriously hate it when you do this. you tell me you can go then at the last minute you say that you might not be able to go / can't go. shiit, i wish you could find out about these things earlier so that i don't get all excited that i'm gonna see you when it'll all come crashing down after .. please don't do this again .. ):

no matter what you do, i'll still keep loving you. <3

yaaaaaawns *

2008-10-15T22:21:12Z

uggh, so right now i'm OH SO VERY tired.
thanks to not eating for the whole day cause i was depressed that i LOST MY WALLET. friiigg, why would someone in RELIGION class steal a wallet. you're supposed to be "religious" in that classs and whoever found it could've at least brought it to the counter to turn it in. goosh, i lost $40 friggin dollars ! -.-" shiit .. i hope i find it .. (yn)

on a good note, i handed in 3 units today. (Y)

no title. ;D

2008-10-15T01:02:05Z

yaaay ! x} LOL. i finally think everything's normal between me and gregg. (: not that there was anything wrong before, it's just we're closer i guess. x} aha, i stayed up til 1:30 last night just talking and laughing with him on the phone. x} aha, and he we started talking at 8. x} so that was like, 5 -iish hours ? aha, we haven't done that since summer. (: aha, i love him since although he had a mad crazy test today, he ditched studying for mee. (: .. even though that's bad on his part -iish ? x} so yeaah. (:
hehe, i love him. ♥(:

ugh, i gotta get to work. ta interview tomorrow and i don't want my ta to think i'm slacking off TOO much. hope all goes well tomorrow. (yn)

turkey day

2008-10-13T17:37:45Z

happy thanksgiving !
hope all who read this have a better thanksgiving than mine.

thanksgiving, oh how wonderful.

2008-10-12T22:12:19Z

oh how wonderful, it's the thanksgiving long weekend, i should be happy cause it's three days outtta school and i can get on track in school, but i'm actually NOT happy. you know why ? cause i could be eating thanksgiving dinner with my family [cousins, aunts, uncles] just like every other year in the past and haing fun with my cousins, but sadly, i'm at home waiting to leave and no, i'm sadly not going to spend my thanksgiving with my family, but i'm spending it with family friends. you might be thinking, why aren't you happy ? it'll be fun ! aha, NO. cause i miss my cousins so damn much, know why ? cause i haven't seen them since my the summer. and yeah, there are people who only see their cousins a couple times a year. but the thing is, the only reason why i haven't seen them is cause my friggin family gets mad and holds grudges over the stupidest reasons. like, frigg .. my aunt had to get mad cause i didn't invite my cousins which are older than me to my birthday party that was full of 13/14 year olds, INCLUDING my cousin brian [except for kuya lad]. seriously, i invited brian cause he's MY age. plus, would they even freekin wanna spend the whole day with people who they don't even know ? they'd just be like .. -.- everytime we'd say something stupid and whatever. and plus, the day of my freekin party they were like, oh are you coming downtown. why would i invite you if you already had plans ? seriously. my friggin tita [aunt]had to get mad over the littlest reasons and i fucking hate it. and then you have to go and tell lola [grandma] that and make her lecture my mom .. -.- shit, wtf is wrong with you ? i mean, it's my party, lemme invite who i wanted to invite. and like, when your daughter had a party and didn't invite us did we get mad ? NO. cause we actually UNDERSTAND. unlike you. goooosh, if it wasn't for you i'd actually be having fun right now. thanks a lot tita .. -.-"

sorry bout another rant .. -.-"
i just had to get it out ..

btw, happy thanksgiving.
i hope you have a better thanksgiving than i'm having.

saturday.october.eleventh.oh`eight.

2008-10-11T20:01:35Z

HAPPY FOUR MONTHS ! <3
i promise you, you're stuck with me for a looong time. (:
june.eleventh.twothousandeight; gregg.jann.repique.autillo.
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imissyou..

2008-10-10T04:17:11Z

wow, i couldn't wait an hour to post again ..

frigg .. i miss you, and this time i'm not talking about gregg ..
no, this time i'm talking about my best friend.
a best friend that i'm starting to lose ..
i understand the saying "people change" but of all people WHY you ?
why did you have to change and turn into this person who's always so PMS-y ?
like, seriously .. we got close cause of *insertnamehere* but we can't depend on people to keep us close .. we're drifting, did you know that ? shiit .. now it's like we have our own seperate lives .. i have mine and you have yours .. but the only thing different is that you're barely part of it .. like, when i pass you in the hallway at school, i say hi and you brush me off, and when i at least try to talk to you, you're always too caught up with other things to even listen .. shit, i thought you'd me one of my life long friends .. but i guess that was cut short when we got to high school. you're getting over leaving elementary .. and i'm not .. it's like i barely exist to you now .. like, i'm an aquaintance now .. it's as if we never knew each other now .. if you think i replaced you, i didn't .. you were always still there .. you were such a good friend and now it's like you just brush it off like we were never close .. like, seriously .. was it that easy to throw away ? cause for me it's not .. cause these tears show how much i care about our friendship ..

i miss you, my best friend ..